An apology to my husband, baby daughter and my house #003

Dear beloved,

I never see myself as a perfect housewife but I do my house chores regularly. I pack my daughter's clothes and bottle for her nursery, change her diaper, prepare her milk bottle daily. My husband always help me to bathe her and dress her up. I always dry , collect, fold or hang and keep the laundry in the cupboard and wardrobe organiser. I sweep, mopped and vacuum the floor of the rooms in our house. I do grocery, keep and organise them and prepare meals. I clean up after every meals and do the dishes. I try to make our house a comfortable, clean and good enough for us to rest and live in after long hours of working.

That was then....

Now, I barely do any of the above mentioned. I only sleep or lay down on the mattress and move around for my bath, to prepare milk, fetch things or drinks. I think I am lazy, the laziest person on earth yet to comfort myself , I keep on reminding myself that I am pregnant and it is normal.

Our house is a mess. Toys and clothes are on the floor. The piles of laundry are at every corner of the house. Dusts are as thick as Lady Gaga's compact powder. Glasses and mugs were left unwashed at the sink and on the dining table. I haven't cook for almost 5 months except for Ramadhan because I couldn't bear the sight of my husband eating take-outs every night for berbuka (breaking fast).

I wish I am a better lover, wife and mother to my husband and my baby daughter and a better owner to my house.

I apologize because I endlessly failed...

Yours truly,

Mommy