I'm 21 weeks pregnant and I am not doing justice to my body and my baby... Why did I say that? Hmm... let's see, I have been "morning sickness" for the first 12 weeks and barely eat nutritional food. During the 13th to 20th weeks , still experiencing the same syndrome except the frequency of my "nauseousness" and vomiting sessions were lesser. During those times, I was so worried about my baby physical condition. I didn't take the folic acid, vitamin B and C and iron tablets given by the nurses. I vomit more when I ate them. My husband kept on saying that I'm being cruel to myself and our baby because I refused to take those pills and drink any form of nutritional liquids.
Honestly, I was upset with what he said. I DO care about my baby, be it the second, third, fourth or what number it is. I did blame myself and felt horrible.
When I look at my friends (who are pregnant too!) , I felt jealous. They are enjoying and celebrating their motherhood. They took pictures, write blogs and tweet about it whereas I curled on the mattress all by myself thinking about how much damages I have caused to my baby (for not taking enough folic acid etc).
I was miserable all these while. Yes, this pregnancy was unplanned and I have to admit that i am a bit unprepared for the future. However, I do want the best for my children in every aspect starting from now.
What I did earlier this week was, I ordered few supplements (iron, folic acid and multivitamins) from a colleague at work and promised myself that I would forced myself to take them ( and put into my mouth and swallow them) daily till my baby is born.
That's mommy's promise to you... and mommy really pray mommy keep mommy's words.
Love,
mizan
My biras, she had really bad morning sickness, worse than mine. Up till 6 months I think. She didn't take any vitamins or supplements, she did mention she ate honey though. And she didn't each much at all.
ReplyDeleteHer baby came out fine. Beautiful happy girl. However, she did recite the Qur'an alot! So yup, that's her 'supplement'. :)
Right now I'm taking Calcium, Iron, Obimin, and Neurogain. There are times when I miss taking them and, and will regret it the next day. Haha.